Monday, March 21, 2005
baby..the fear is still haunting me and linger around me. Please be here soon...cos i think im going crazy. I know u told me not to think about it but when im alone. Im just scared.... i need u candybar. I dont wanna to hear any single thing from him anymore...NO MORE! HOLS is over , mummy is not free for me. I cant talk to her till she finishes her stuff. Alone at home with my maid... trying hard to divert my attention. I think im going to make some crafts.

MY ANGER VENTING on tt terry!- Listen asshole, i dont think you even deserve me from the start. I regretted going to Genting and meet you there. Now that you come crawling and saying you miss me. And when i ignore you, u started scolding me with all the fantastic words. Great huh? What do u think you are? U are nothing to me right now! Nothing but a mentally unsound sick child.Pathetic! u know care for ur bloody well-being and did u ever care from others. Ur promises just make me sick and wanna puke! I am not the naive girl anymore and so i wouldnt forgive you and make myself get torture from ABUSE! I think u need some psychological help, sicko! what do i get treating you so good,flying over ur place once you booked out.. take the effort to go over to pasir ris and fetch you, even cook for you when u AWOL. The stupidiest things i ever done in my life! Wwhy shld i even take you back. All i can say is im dumb and blinded by your honeyed words which are no longer useful to me. They can't last me forever. u need to reflect on urself and see what wrong with you. Treasure people when they are around and not when they are gone then you find them important! IT'S TOO LATE or you are too slow to find out. u love keeping things to urself and explode when you can no longer take it anymore. U accuse me without even bothering to find out what the hell is going on. The very next day, come and tell me SORRY. Thanks for all the shit you gave me. I am so thankful that you are no longer in my life. I am much more happier without you, believe it or not! You are a loser in love and everything. Stop thinking that you are right about everything. That's not call principle! That's call EGO. You're in the wrong but never wants to listen to others cos you are avoiding them and not wanting to face till u reach your grave! Go get a life and stop harassing me! MORON! from my heart, this im telling you- i despise you! LOSER!

*ANGER RELIEVED* those words are in my heart ever since god-knows-when.


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